A Year Will Come and Go Regardless....

......will I be better or worse? I really like that quote. It motivates me. It puts things in perspective. It gives me hope. It's also too long term for me. It's the light at the end of the tunnel that is still pitch black right now. It's the finish line of the marathon, a picture when I close my eyes, but not tangible yet. Although it's not my profession, procrastination is probably my main hobby. Not that it's anything to be proud of, nor is it anything new with me, but it is what it is. Give me a year to accomplish something, and I'll take the first 9 months off because "I have PLENTY of time to achieve this goal". I've set short term goals, but failed to follow up with the steps necessary to reach them. For me it's a constant battle of being proactive or putting it off for later. So far on this journey, unfortunately the latter concept has been the overwhelming winner.

Another quote that Billy recently put on his blog was something like "If you can't keep a promise to yourself, what kind of person does that make you??" I wasn't as big of a fan of this one. My initial reaction was almost anger, which is ridiculous because it's not like the quote was meant in an antagonistic way. The only way that quote could make anyone angry would be if the person reading it had broken a promise to themself, and therefore took offense to the comment........uhhhhh, CHECK :). The quote applys to me so how do I answer? I guess I don't know what kind of person that makes me. Someone who doesn't follow thru or a person with a motivation problem. Whatever I am, I know that this is a characteristic that I'd like to start bending in the right direction. Along with being more fit and healthy, I have plenty of other things that could use some working on. A big one is following thru on the things that I say that I'm going to do. Of course, this goal applies to many different aspects of my life and not just the weight loss. Like many other things with me though, this isn't something that I just realized. It's not like it's an new problem. I'm not much into New Years resolutions (mostly because I don't see them thru.......hmmmm), but I think this year I'm going to try, no not try.......I AM, going to follow up on them.

So here they are....I'm going to be more diligent in doing the things that need to be done WHEN they need to be done, not later. Whether it's getting to the gym, eating healthy, fixing something at the house, helping my wife with the household chores, joining a ToastMaster group, or seeking out other ways to help advance my professional life, whatever it may be, I am going to be proactive. Given, this is a repeat of a PROMISE that I've made to myself (and others) plenty of times, but this time I'm going to keep it. I still don't know what kind of person it'll make me when I DO keep a promise to myself, but I don't think I'd be too far off by saying that I'll be happier and more proud of the person I am.

Now on to this whole blogging thing. It's sad for me to say that I haven't posted in almost 3 weeks. That's not the way I wanted it to be. In one of my earlier posts I commented on some of the links that everyone has on their page to someone elses page that's gone dormant. I said that I didn't want to be one of those people who started with the best of intentions and then taperd off. I also said that no matter what "Happy, Sad, Good, or Bad" that I'd let you know how I was doing, and I haven't done that lately. It's hard for me because the last thing I want to do is waste someone else's time. The best thing about the Coalition, at least for me, is that everyone reads everyone else's posts and takes the time to comment, encourage, console, motivate, etc. In my mind, if I'm posting, and people are taking the time to read and comment, but I'm not following up on my end of the bargain, then I'm wasting everyone's time. I don't want this to just be words. As we all know, it's so easy to write or say, but not do.....hence "easier said than done". If I write something I want it to be something that I'm going to adhere to. I was all gung ho about Tuck's Big Challenge, for like the first week, then had a bad weekend and it all fell apart. By letting it fall apart, it made me feel like the enthusiasm that I had, and the things that I'd written about how excited I was and how it was going to help further motivate me to stay on track were all just lip service.

Anyways, I've taken up enough of your time.......I'll write more soon. I hope you all had a great holiday.